If you’ve read the title, you know exactly what this blog post is about. Yes.
We are having another baby!
We found out for sure on 31st October so we have nicknamed our baby Little Pumpkin until we find out if we are having a girl or a boy.
These first 12 weeks have been really scary. I was ill with a stomach virus at the start for a few weeks which caused some stomach pain and I had to have an emergency scan to make sure baby was doing okay and to check the pain wasn’t linked to the baby nor my ovaries. This was the first time we saw our little rainbow baby. It took the sonographer a little while to tell us she could see a heartbeat. I’m pretty sure it was actually seconds but it felt like hours. I felt like I couldn’t breathe until she said she could see a heartbeat and then we both pretty much teared up in relief… I may have ugly cried.
I have a lot of fear for the first 12 weeks of pregnancy due to our miscarriage in 2017. There’s lots of different innocent pains that come with the first 3 months of pregnancy, a lot of those pains can be similar to the start of what I experienced before. I avoid calling my midwife unless I really need to. But the few times I have had to call her about pains, she’s been lovely and understanding and has had me checked over at the hospital to put my mind to rest. Very different to the midwife we had a few years ago with our first baby, so having her reassurance has definitely helped me get through the first 3 months. But I’ll talk a little more about the first 12 weeks in another blog post as I have taken notes all along. This pregnancy is very different to my previous pregnancies.
This baby has been very wanted since we lost our Little Peach back in summer 2017. We have wanted another baby ever since. But my fear has always gotten in the way. I just didn’t feel ready to possibly go through it all over again, it also took me a long time to heal (if you’d call it that) from losing our baby. But with the improvement of my mental health and a doctor that was extremely helpful and did all tests he thought were needed to see if my body was ready to try to conceive again, we were given the heads up that if we wanted to, we could try. These tests were done very early summer and took a little while to all come back so I didn’t find out results until very late in August. Since I was having troubles with the pill during the summer anyway, the doctor advised me to go off so my mental health would recover from the damage the pill had done and then go back to see him, see how I felt in the meantime. I went off the pill on 1st September, saw the doctor a little while later, and since I had been feeling myself again and had recovered, we decided to try to conceive for this little bundle of joy, the doctor was supportive of this and advised me on how to go from there in terms of when to do tests and so on.
I’m not going to lie, I didn’t really follow days or take ovulation tests. We made the decision to go with the flow and not over-worry ourselves with ovulation tests and constant pregnancy tests. All I had was a Glow app on my phone with my period cycle on it. From my understanding, we conceived pretty much straight away once I had my first period, which was lucky. Mid-October I started to feel sick and decided to do a test, the test was extremely faint so I wasn’t really sure what to make of it, you could barely see the line. So I did another test that looked the same and another that was negative, so I didn’t think too much of it. Then a week or two later I was due on my period and it just didn’t show up so I did another test that was faint but now a lot more visible and did a Clearblue weeks indicator test which showed I was very obviously pregnant. I was 4 weeks.
I swear it was the happiest feeling. We were both so happy finding out and I got straight on the phone to make a midwife appointment. We weren’t expecting it so soon. We honestly thought we wouldn’t conceive at least until the new year so it was a lovely surprise. This baby has been wanted for so long and we genuinely feel so blessed that this is happening.
We are both absolutely over the moon and can’t wait to meet our little rainbow baby in the new year. 2019 is definitely going to be an amazing year for us, I’m sure of it.
All in all, I would like to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a happy new year! May all your dreams come true in 2019!